The Robot's Thoughts

Its always the same losing a friend.
Always so preventable, but not.

Always so unacceptable, but unchangable when that person shuts you out.
Ignores you.

You think you can be so patient and reasonable and wait it out
but you can't

You think demonstrating your good qualities will smooth things over
but it won't

You try not to return their animosity
but in the end, you do

Am I any different?
If soapbox was to give a piece of me to my friends, and to never lose touch
what's the point if you lose touch anyway

are we doomed to accept life as it is?
Is there no stance of ideals that could make others really understand?

why seek wisdom and community through adventures with friends when its so much easier to chase money and fake that oh-so-unattainable fulfillment?
why not be part of the problem?
why not be the asshole and not compromise?

why understand if others won't?
fuck, why. HOW did it get this way?

i can't quite figure out if i belong more to the digital world of machines or to the "real", analogue one.
and i can't decide which one is truly worthy of my time and dedication.
and if you can't find enlightment with or through someone, could you find it with or through something?

Am I any different?