The Robot's Thoughts

Lately things have been going alright. Not great, but not terrible. My head is above water with respect to all the issues I'm dealing with right now. I'm coming up on two weeks without a cigarette. I'm working out with intensity again. And I'm calling friends out of the blue.

And I'm a little excited. New and Old friends are visiting in the next few weeks, and I'm planning on visiting some old friends soon. Just knowing people think I'm worth the drive, and that we're going to have a good time seeing the city, well, it puts a little spring in my step. It gives me the confidence to push myself.

I know I still struggle. I know I still stumble. But now when the rug is swept out from under me, I am getting up faster and faster.

Hey Angel
Fly Over
See me smile
See you fake surprise

Easy Now
One Hand Will Wash The Other
One Hand Will Wash The Other


I worked out today. Same gym, different world. I didn't pay attention to anyone. I was just focused on exhausting my body as soon as possible. I discovered rowing machines are ideal for this. So is benching 3 sets of 165, doing pec flys, and the shoulder shrugs. I didn't last half as long as I wanted (how many times have I said that...) but I was pushing myself and saving nothing for the next exercise.

This is life without a parachute. There is no ripchord or easy button.

And I'm starting to embrace it, finally.