Saturday, April 02, 2005
Keeping it positive.
Thursday night I called a friend of mine that I'm trying to get closer with to hang out. The response was, "love to, but I have to study all night. I got 3 chapters of blah blah blah that I still have to cover."
So I since the usual calls to people who don't call me back were fruitless, I ended up working out and running errands until 9, and showering and such kept me busy till bed.
I woke up the next day and doubled over with cramps. I tried going to work, but by the time i reached the tunnels I realized I was going to get sick in my car.
So I went home and slept. Around 8 i get up to check the news and such, seeing as I called off work. And that's when it happened. I saw my friend's away message:
"Still drunk from going out last night. But hey, I was a champ!"
Lame.
Normally, I would be bummed by this, and the fair weather friendships of this world would dishearten me so much I'd become needy and co-dependent on somebody.
Not this time. I just snapped back.
My friend Seth just recently celebrated his 22nd. His band, (and my friend Adam's) played at Mr. Smalls. Had a great time watching them. And I got to ignore the person who blew me off thursday :)
The point is that I'm not longer worried about cutting the chord with people that don't really care about me. Whatever perceived injustices, perceived thoughtless acts that I was or am part of, if they're going to hold it against me, So be it. I won't be trying much longer to change their mind. What I am going to do is spend time with the people who call me back.
And I'm going to keep pushing forward with my goals.
So I since the usual calls to people who don't call me back were fruitless, I ended up working out and running errands until 9, and showering and such kept me busy till bed.
I woke up the next day and doubled over with cramps. I tried going to work, but by the time i reached the tunnels I realized I was going to get sick in my car.
So I went home and slept. Around 8 i get up to check the news and such, seeing as I called off work. And that's when it happened. I saw my friend's away message:
"Still drunk from going out last night. But hey, I was a champ!"
Lame.
Normally, I would be bummed by this, and the fair weather friendships of this world would dishearten me so much I'd become needy and co-dependent on somebody.
Not this time. I just snapped back.
My friend Seth just recently celebrated his 22nd. His band, (and my friend Adam's) played at Mr. Smalls. Had a great time watching them. And I got to ignore the person who blew me off thursday :)
The point is that I'm not longer worried about cutting the chord with people that don't really care about me. Whatever perceived injustices, perceived thoughtless acts that I was or am part of, if they're going to hold it against me, So be it. I won't be trying much longer to change their mind. What I am going to do is spend time with the people who call me back.
And I'm going to keep pushing forward with my goals.
