Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Sound in a Dark Room
Alternate Title, for those of you not a fan of Telefone Tel Aviv, could be "unfamiliar ceiling". (Eva reference).
I'm feeling a bit morose, because its the real first night in the new apartment, which means I've moved one step further away from someone who always seems to give a damn about me no matter what I do.
Part of me wonders if in hindsight I'll realize I've made the biggest mistake of my life (so far) in this past year, and I've been too up in my head to do anything about it. But I'm too stubborn to risk damaging someone by making them put up with my shit again, even if they think I've turned a corner.
Doubt clouds my faith in humanity. I'm not trying to be emo. Life has just taught me to expect that people are too busy in their own little bubble to really care about another person. Expect to be disappointed and you're really not let down. It leads to a pretty accurate prediction of any situation's outcome.
But when you're wrong, you usually owe someone an apology.
It will be days before I sleep soundly, but the wonderful thing about being all up in your head is that its easy to forget all the minor emotional stresses.
I'm feeling a bit morose, because its the real first night in the new apartment, which means I've moved one step further away from someone who always seems to give a damn about me no matter what I do.
Part of me wonders if in hindsight I'll realize I've made the biggest mistake of my life (so far) in this past year, and I've been too up in my head to do anything about it. But I'm too stubborn to risk damaging someone by making them put up with my shit again, even if they think I've turned a corner.
Doubt clouds my faith in humanity. I'm not trying to be emo. Life has just taught me to expect that people are too busy in their own little bubble to really care about another person. Expect to be disappointed and you're really not let down. It leads to a pretty accurate prediction of any situation's outcome.
But when you're wrong, you usually owe someone an apology.
It will be days before I sleep soundly, but the wonderful thing about being all up in your head is that its easy to forget all the minor emotional stresses.
Labels: late night thoughts, personal
