Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I have a plan
I have a plan.
A plan I can stick to.
A plan that, whatever the outcome, will leave me in a better place than I was before I had the plan.
Mileposts have passed. I've made great strides. Where I was Thursday can be seen only if I squint while looking back.
The friends close enough to know my machinations, approve of this plan. Explaining it in Therapy got me a double thumbs up. The few that question, well, their concerns have always been noted.
I'm not avoiding the things that put my heart in my throat. Good or bad, its the scenery on my path.
My suffering, needless or not, is like a rainstorm. It will cross my path, but depart from it as well. The lesson is to appreciate the rain; appreciate the sun. Both are impermanent. Both matter in the moments they are present.
I apologize to anyone curious enough to read this post, looking for more truth than some simplistic, abstract jibber-jabber. For you, I have a story. I reconnected with my old roommate. She and I spent Sunday evening watching FX's new show, Archer, and a few Dexter episodes. I fell asleep next to her, because I hadn't gotten a good night's sleep all weekend. She woke me up when it was time to take her home. It was really good to see her. I hadn't realized how much I missed her until I woke up, head on her shoulder. My cat, Kara, really seems to like how she smells, probably because she has cats as well. I think I'm going to start watching MAD MEN with her, however, as I've already seen Dexter enough.
The Chinese character for "heart" is the same character for "mind". Heart and Mind are one. Little things like that are neat facts I like to learn .
A plan I can stick to.
A plan that, whatever the outcome, will leave me in a better place than I was before I had the plan.
Mileposts have passed. I've made great strides. Where I was Thursday can be seen only if I squint while looking back.
The friends close enough to know my machinations, approve of this plan. Explaining it in Therapy got me a double thumbs up. The few that question, well, their concerns have always been noted.
I'm not avoiding the things that put my heart in my throat. Good or bad, its the scenery on my path.
My suffering, needless or not, is like a rainstorm. It will cross my path, but depart from it as well. The lesson is to appreciate the rain; appreciate the sun. Both are impermanent. Both matter in the moments they are present.
I apologize to anyone curious enough to read this post, looking for more truth than some simplistic, abstract jibber-jabber. For you, I have a story. I reconnected with my old roommate. She and I spent Sunday evening watching FX's new show, Archer, and a few Dexter episodes. I fell asleep next to her, because I hadn't gotten a good night's sleep all weekend. She woke me up when it was time to take her home. It was really good to see her. I hadn't realized how much I missed her until I woke up, head on her shoulder. My cat, Kara, really seems to like how she smells, probably because she has cats as well. I think I'm going to start watching MAD MEN with her, however, as I've already seen Dexter enough.
The Chinese character for "heart" is the same character for "mind". Heart and Mind are one. Little things like that are neat facts I like to learn .
# posted by Chris Wilson : 10:28:00 AM
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